Ok, so I'm going on a management "retreat" for work. Basically, it's brainwashing by a guest speaker about leadership. Hopefully, I will be indeed brainwashed. Seriously, I need that shit. I'm not good at bossing people around and I'm even worse at confrontations. I force myself to do it, but it's hard. I'm a horrible boss, but I suppose knowing is half the battle, right?
I'm worried about the social part of the retreat. All other management/supervisors, medical directors will be there also. Which means I'll be forced to partake in my favorite activity- talking to people I don't know. I'm nervous already because I don't want to people to misconstrue my shyness as being a snob, as I've previously discussed and complained about.
I remember last year, I was singled out and asked a question about something undoubtedly lame. I don't know how but I squeaked out a perfectly acceptable answer, but I still felt like a dumb ass. I HATE speaking in front of large groups. UGH. It's just so funny how I can be so open to people who know me, but so distant to others.
I'm not totally complaining. Afterall, I get 3 days off from my actual job, paid, which is cool. I get free food for a few days. I get my own room at the Sir Frances Drake Hotel in SF. AND we get to go to the SF zoo on Wednesday afternoon for a tour. I think we get to feed the giraffes!!! Awesome! So, it's not all that bad, I suppose. Really, I'm grateful I get to go... it's not VCA's fault that I'm lame and can't talk to people.
I'm bringing my computer so I can blog about anything of interest-- any interesting happenings and such. So we'll see. Wish me and my lameness luck....
um, if you feed the giraffes i will die of jealousy!! :P no i won't i will be super excited for you! TAKE PICTURES PLEASE!
ReplyDeletetalking to people: LAME. but i am sure you will do a great job.
and don't be afraid of those peeps, they are probably just as nervous as you are!